Friends

I would not have gotten through all the crap with J. without my friends. Friends really do come in handy when you have a broken heart. For a long time I thought that in order to be happy you had to be in a relationship. Instead I realized that to be happy you have to have a handful of friends that you can count on for when the man in your life disappoints and you don't know where to go. I have a handful of friends and I am ok with that. Friends are what help you get by and call him an asshole when you miss him. They always remind you of why the two of you broke up in the first place when you start telling stories of him, they even know when to ask if your ok because they can tell your not yourself.

     I have a few friends in particular that come to mind. Jesse. Maddie and Mersadez.  I have known Jesse for almost 8 years, we have been through the good, the bad and the ugly and still we stick by each other and never lose the friendship. Every time we see each other it feels like old times. He knows me, loves me and understands me. Now Maddie. I never thought I would have such a strong bond with a girl after what the last few girls had done to me. She means the world to me. She would listen for hours on the phone and in person about me and J.. She always would be there to cheer me up or hold my hand. She understands me better then any girl I have ever met and although she is living in Santa Barbara now.  I still will consider her my closest girlfriend. She doesn't judge and we are sisters to the core. I always tell her Till death do us part. She is what made me the happiest. I owe everything to her for getting me out of my slump and helping me realize I don't deserve the treatment I got. Mersadez is my other half.. We always joke that if we put the two of us together, we would make one whole person.She is the sensible one and I am the dreamer. She understands I am a little more emotional then most. I write from the heart and me and her have that Creative Writing vibe. She understands that sometimes I need someone to listen and she does that for me. Without these 3 friends I don't know what I would do.I am not saying that my other friends didn't help. Mike, Linda, Courtney and countless others helped me through this hard time. I am just saying that through the hard times when I needed a friend, no matter what my boy and 2 M's were there!