Grieving Daughter...

Sometimes I feel as though life take things away from us that we really want in our lives.. and it sucks! It really sucks... I was searching online and I came across a poem that really reminded me of my daddy, and how much I really do miss him and how life might have been different if he were still here! I LOVE YOU DADDY! Greatly Missed A Fathers touch, A Daddy's kiss, A grieving Daughter, You're greatly missed. An empty house, An empty chair, A fathers love, No longer there. A broken heart, Tear filled eye, Another soul to fill the sky. Many memories in my mind, Some I laugh, Some I cry. The times we shared, The laughs we had, Things I miss when I think of you Dad. Realizing that's all I have to hold on too, Only memories, Of what once was you. Missing your laugh, I will never again hear. That is the reality that fills me with so much fear. No more smile on your face, No more warmth of your embrace. The last hug, The last kiss, The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish... To have you Dad, here today, Never to leave your Daughter this way. A Father's touch, A Daddy's kiss, A grieving Daughter, YOU'RE GREATLY MISSED

Destructive Behavior...

Can you think of sex as a destructive behavior? Are all destructive behaviors bad? What makes a destructive behavior worth fixing? I know in my life I have gone out on a limb and started a destructive behavior, whether it be slightly promiscuous or drinking every weekend. I think everyone has a moment in their life where a destructive behavior happens. The question is, how do you know when your in a destructive behavior situation and how do you become strong enough and have enough will and self respect and self love to walk away from a situation that isn’t causing you any happiness? Me personally.. I normally have to be told how it really is by loved ones to get any sort of bubble going in my brain. Some people have told me that I am one of those people who may have to lose it all to find happiness again. I wouldn’t even have thought of myself being in a destructive behavior had no one told it to me.. I just thought it was a maybe a rebel phase that I was just trying new things and experiencing things that I didn’t when I was younger and obedient. Now that I think about it, was all of the destructive behavior really worth all the anguish and pain it has caused? How can you walk away from something that gives you such a high, yet you know its wrong?