Forgotten for a while...

Its tough when you cant see when your being used.  You think you know someone and you realize that apparently they are not who you thought they were. You sever all communication for a bit because of the fights you keep having and the pain you are causing one another and you then realize a month later that the holidays came and went and here you are trying to figure out how you let yourself get to the point of being used that bad. Where you couldn't say no even if you wanted to. Where it was always what they needed and not what you wanted or needed. The resentment builds until one day you explode. I loved this person very much and here she is pretending as though I never existed. No Merry Christmas, no Happy New Year, no communication at all. All because I couldn't make time to hang out with her. I know what your thinking, if you really care for someone you will make time for them. Honestly I was tired of the drama and constant emergency's that kept coming up, (mind you, they were not actual emergency's)  plus I started a relationship that was a full time commitment. Sometimes I wonder if the entire 2 years that I was friends with her, if it was a cover for the loss of a friend that I lost before she came around. Well I guess I will never know.