Ask any of my close friends and they will tell you, the thing that drives me nuts and angers me to the highest level are hypocrites. But what happens when you become the hypocrite that you desperately hate? You become your own worst enemy. Your actions are impractical, your mood swings are erratic and you cant seem to settle in a main idea or thought long enough to sit down and write about it. That's what my life has been like the last few weeks. People can breakdown. It's a part of life, but how do you tell someone they are in the wrong with a straight face and the do the exact thing that they are being criticized for right after. There really is no right or wrong answer to this particular question. Being in my late 20's with no relationship, it seems to me that people tend to like to say one thing and do the opposite. It's not easy having a conscience sometimes. You wanna be bad, you wanna break free even though you know what your doing is wrong, but something compels you to continue on the path that will in the end, just end. No happy ending, no marriage proposal. It will just end. Is the agony of waiting and wondering worth it? I honestly don't know. What I do know is that every time you make a mistake you learn. I have learned a lot in my life so far so I guess one more mistake wouldn't kill anyone.
Reen
