Writing..

I'm told to write every chance I get. So here I am writing on a blank blog and I have nothing to say. Maybe if I hadnt read the note that F. left on J's page I would have a lot to say. Maybe I just want my happily ever after already... I don't feel like life is going anywhere. I got a b in math... be excited about that considering I have never gotten a B in my life in Math. I am starting school in a month and I am super excited to start a new chapter in life. I sit here unable to write about life because I am still so alone in the battle. I have friends sure, they are really good friends, but what happens with my best friend leaves for college in Sept and my other best friend moves to Oceanside. Who will I have to hang out with? Who will comfort me at all moments of the night when I need it the most? I think I have just gotten to the moment of lonely. The moment of lonely. A weird word for someone who never seems to be alone. I try everyday to just stay happy and joyful, but I don't have much motivation at this moment. I know I wasn't meant to mope around and look like an idiot. I know I am not supposed to continue pining for someone who has already moved on. I just wish life was a little easier at the moment. Sure, I'm taking anti-depressant pills.. and they seem to be helping my mood... But what about me in general. I find myself staring at my phone wanting it to ring from some guy I hardly know. I want to talk to him, I guess I want to be needed again. I wish I had someone to need me, the way I have in the past. I am looking forward to my date this weekend with what seems like an awesome guy. Gosh I guess writing out how you feel is a good thing. Certainly made me feel better! :) Nite all <3