A new beginning?

So I write a new beginning with this blog because for the first time in a while, I feel as though a new beginning is started... I had a horrible time tonight, but the night finally ended good. I yelled and screamed at W. tonight. I guess I didn't realize how bad I was hurt till the alcohol kicked in. I told him that I wanted to end the friendship which to a certain extent I did... but then he started to cry and tell me that he didn't want to lose me and all this shit.. and so we worked it out. I am glad because I do love him as a friend, but I just... idk.. it's complicated. Ugh,.. I'm tired.. bedtime!