So done!

     What kinda people think that they can do whatever they want and there are no consequences for it. I am sooo done with the men out there who think they are the exceptions to the rule. If they don't want me, fuck them.. there are 15 more who will want me. I'm sick of being the way I am sometimes, I wish I could be a cold hearted bitch. Have no feelings for anyone but myself. "How did I throw half a lifetime away without any thought at all? This should have been my time, its over, it never began. I closed my eyes to so much for so long and I no longer can".

     You shouldn't chase men that don't want you. It is a waste of time, and you may find they are a lot dumber or not really what you wanted in the first place after you get to know them better. You could have hardcore feelings for someone, and then one thing happens and your feelings are so gone, you wonder why you didn't think of it earlier. You realize you should have gotten out when you had the choice... It aches inside to think of all the time and energy you put into trying to be with someone who doesn't want you. I'm not sure if the whole maybe we can be something down the line was a coverup to "There is no chance in hell me and you are going to be together".

     I do sometimes live in a optimistic lifestyle of thinking. I think the guy who says he has never dated a girl like me is suddenly going to realize that I am the one for him. I think that the feelings that I have for him, will change his mind and nothing can change his mind, so why bother trying to be with someone who isnt worth it?