Take me the way I am...

I was sitting here thinking to myself about my first love, D.. How simple life was back then. How much I enjoyed the small little things in the relationship and how much I wished it would never end. It reminded me of K and W. The devotion they both have with each other and how they interact. They can't be without one another for minutes at a time, and crave seeing the other one all the time. It was the same with me and D. I would miss him all the time and he was all I could think about all the time. When we would get into fights I couldn't seem to do anything. We hardly ever fought until it came to his parents who after they found an alarming note in his dresser drawer, no longer liked me. It made life a lot harder, having to sneak around and all that to see him, but we were determined. D loved me for me. He never tried to change me or tell me who to hang out with. I miss him some days. I miss the purity of the relationship. I miss those days where sex wasn't the thing that bonded you to a relationship. You just wanted to see each other, with no sexual bonds, I mean sure the urges were still there, but you resisted them. I wish I had lost my V card to D. I wish a lot of things had come out of that relationship. We learn a lot when we lose our first love. It hurts a lot and we don't know if we are going to make it, but then we realize if there was no pain in life, then we would just never know what loss means. We would laugh at funerals and never understand the idea of losing someone close to us. Pain helps us realize we are human and alive. Its funny.. Someone today at work had asked me how I was and I was like "I'm alright, not having a great day" and she said " Well think of it this way, you have your 5 senses, touch, feel, smell, hear and speech and some people never have all 5 of those." She was just saying that your alive and you always have something to be happy about. Lately I have missed having a man in my life.