Is it wrong?

      Is it wrong to miss someone? Someone who doesnt seem to give you the time of day anymore? Someone who has moved on with life and seems to be too busy to hang out with you, to call you, to even just tell you they miss you? How do you know when its time to move on? How do you move on so that it stops hurting? Will it ever stop hurting? He found the girl for him, even though it was supposed to be me. Who am I kidding? It will never be me. I can't ever be a size 2. I'm not sure why I still like him. I don't think it is a obsession anymore, I think it has gone to the point of dependency. I can't seem to tell myself I can live without him because it makes me feel better thinking he needs me as much as he says he does.
     Tore moved back in the house and that hurts more then I can even explain. Why does she get to move back in while mom is gone and I can't. She is the ex gf in distress and I guess thats all I can say about that.
     I feel empty and betrayed. I feel like a part of me is missing and I want it back soo bad. I sit here with tears in my eyes trying to figure out why it hurts so bad? What hurts so bad? Is it the thought of losing him? Maybe the thought he doesnt need me as much as I thought. I feel like i've been abandoned. Just dropped like a bad habit, thrown out like a piece of garbage..
    I can't make him love me if he doesn't. He is going out and having the time of his life with Katie, and leaving me in the dust... Ugh.. I wish there was some way to make him understand. To switch it around, and show him how it feels on the other end.