Rumors..

They can break you or make you stronger
They can break your heart and make you think longer
They can make you want to go out and shout to the world
All the pain and the hurt it is causing you, putting you in a swirl.

The truth, the lies, its all the same
Cause at the end of the day, you just feel ashamed
Maybe because you actually thought they were true
Or maybe because the knot in your stomach makes you want to

I can't remember the last time I felt the way I do
In a rut, in a bind, with my brain in a batter of glue
What makes me think this way,
As if I have something to worry about?

Why am I freaking out?
As if I dont know what he is all about
He would never do that to me
ever in his life you see.
So why am I doubting him all of a sudden?
Whats wrong with the picture and me?

As I sit here at my computer trying to type what I feel
I can't help but think that this could be real
What if I am wrong, and he is out with her?
What if I'm the fool and didn't catch the signs to concure

There is a bit of confusion in my mind right now,
1 hour turns into 4 and I feel like a clown
Sitting here waiting for him to come home,
not sure what to think, who to call or where to go

Just sitting and thinking is the worst, people may disagree
cause you sit here and your mind wanders of the worst possibilities,
what if you say to yourself your overreacting, and he is just fine,
then the other demon comes in and shakes it out of your mind


Tick tock Tick tock goes the clock that never seems to stop
Why can't I fall asleep and let these demons give up
I close my eyes trying to fall asleep and
The next thing I know I am waking with a blink

I look next to me and to my dismay
I found no body to cuddle with today
I guess the demons get their way
for yet I go without him for another day